I just found out that one of my oldest and best friends is going to be going to OA meetings.  That is Overeaters Anonymous.  I can’t spell.  I always kind of knew that she was, but I couldn’t say anything.  And sadly it so inspiring to not eat.  At all.  I already ate lunch but now I’m like whoa food?  I don’t think so.


The song Courage by Superchick is about eating disorders.  Check it out if you can.


EDIT – Aly Burns just IMed me and asked me if I was skinny now.  Aparently I mentioned to Devan that I lost weight and she took it as oh she’s skinny now and told Aly and Aly being wonderous and all sorts of good charecteristics asked me about it.


My reaction to this – WHAT THE FUCK.


If people think I’ve gotten skinny then they really have a bad hold on weight loss.  I lost just enough to make people notice and maybe I’m dressing better or something but there is no way I am skinny.  No.  Way. 
Since when do people from back home care about me anyway?  I was never someone you noticed.  No one even realised that I went to college until I came back for a visit a month later.  ‘What do you mean your visiting?  Wait did you go somewhere?’  Yeah I did.  I got a life where I may be alone but at least I’m not in a crowd hating myself like I was back there.  The worst was being invisible no matter how much commotion you were causing.  Even my closest friends had no idea.


What is people biggest misconception about me?  That I’m really like this.  That I’m not always putting on an act no matter where I am because I always am thinking about what other people are thinking.  What is the real me?  Good question, it got lost in the shuffle.