The more I think about the Lindsay Lohan bulimia thing the more I feel like throwing up. I don’t like throwing up at all. That is the only reason I don’t do it. Like I really really hate throwing up.
I might go out to eat with a friend tomorrow. I will exercise all morning first though. I’m really excited about that. I’m tired. I think the Zantrax did give me some energy, and that is good because now I’m tired at a normal time. Maybe I can sleep. Yay for sleep!
My mom is buying me 2 bikinis and a dress thing from Victoria’s Secret’s sale catalog. They are really cute, I wanted them last year but didn’t have enough money for the original price. One is a halter and has a red paisley type of print, the other is a string bikini with ruffles in a few places. Really cute because it’s solid colors instead of all overly girly so the ruffles are understated. I’m getting it in baby blue. Or maybe I will pick pink. Or maybe black like Lindsay Lohan! I’m so excited! Def. thinspiration. I may just take them to my dorm when they are in and put them on the wall so I can constantly look and see what I’m aiming for. Or I will just take the pictures of them and put them on the wall. Yeah, that’s not quite as conspicuos.
I know what you mean about hating to throw-up. I actually lack the gag reflexes or something to make myself throw-up, so I’m glad I don’t have to worry about that. Wow, I can’t even look at a bikini yet, lol! Well, stay strong, & be careful with all those pills you’re taking–hope they don’t react with each other badly or something. Much love ❤ Lara
hey darling<3
dont throw up..Its better to NOT eat then throw up..throwing up fucks up your insides