I think I am taking the weekend off.  I know it could ruin everything I’ve done this week, but I need to stop worrying about my body for two days and focus on my family because I won’t see them for a while.  I’m going to eat.  I will exercise.  I will take a few pills.  When I get to school I will be able to concentrate on just school work and my body, but until then I need to have other things on my mind. 


I need support in this because I am having such a bad night.  I feel like a failure.  Lindsay Lohan wouldn’t do this, would she?  Maybe she would.  I don’t know.  I’m tired of thinking but I can’t sleep.