Thank you Everyone for the awesome comments on getting to sleep! I wish I could take a bath but there is no tub at my dorm. I would have taken a nice warm shower but guess what the problem was?
THERE WAS NO HEAT IN MY DORM.
Yeah, like on my entire side in all 5 buildings no one had any heat. Biatches.
Anyway, today was so not good.
B – Nothing
L – Wild Bill Cheese Burger with French Fried Potatoes (really kinda just sliced and baked potatoes) then Chocolate Mouse Cake.
S – So far? Probubly 12 pieces of chocolate.
Pills – 1 zantrax 3, 4 Fiber.
I went out to lunch with Dad and I ate like a starving college student. He always days something if I don’t eat like normal. “What you on a diet now or something?” “Yes.” “WHY?” So I just eat around him. I love him so very much, I’m his little girl. We were at a restaurant over vacation and one of his colleagues came over to say hi and was saying how dad brags about me and how proud he was. Breaks my heart that I can’t be perfect for him. Maybe when I’m thin?
I’ve decided to try to keep the pills to a minimum, like only take one kind a day so I don’t overload my system. I want my body to always be like ‘what? wait I gotta do that now!’ Instead of ‘Oh it’s just zantrax. Whatev.’ So my new plan is to survive off pills water and as of today and my mother sending me chocolate, chocolate. And exercise, which I will do tomorrow because today I have no energy and alot of poetry revision to do.
I will go around and comment (again) later when I take another study break.
Dirty Sean 
its ok. youll do better tomorrow. your dad sounds awesome!
Thanks! I’m feeling a lot better. My audition is for the musical Parade, and it actually isn’t until tonight. Thanks for the support! Stay strong, hon! ❤ Lara
sorry about your dorm, that sux! i know how ya feel about your dad! i’m such a daddy’s girl, he raised me by himself. a lot of what i do, school and such, i do to make him proud. hope you get heat soon, and have fun studying! ❤
btw i’m gonna add u to my aim list if that’s cool.
Hey gorgeous… i got my kelp pills at Wild oats in Portland, and you can get them at any health food store or order them offline… Walmart doesn’t have them… also, a cup of brewed green tea has waaaaaaay more caffeine then a green tea extract pill… So yea.. As far as coffee goes…If you get the latte lite at Dunkin Donuts it’s really good and a medium is only 100 cals… but it has a serious coffee taste. Another thing you might actually like is if you have a sugarfree nonfat vanilla latte at Starbucks, or a sugarfree mocha.. they have sugarfree flavoring syrups, you just have to specify. It tastes less like coffee if you get it flavored, and the flavoring is cal/sugar free, so it’s guiltless! But you still get the benefits and massive amount of caffeine. 100 mg / shot of espresso, latte’s have 2 shots, and 145 mg/7 oz brewed coffee. A cup of Green Tea is 45mg, so your best bet is brewed coffee… Another tip is to try it iced.. that way is tastes better too. Hope that all helps doll!<3 c
lovely site babe ❤
man those zantrax’s(those are the blue ones right?)…they’re HUGE!..I can’t make my self take them..
much love,and hang in there sweetie!
gina