I have no idea how much I weight or how much I ate in the past 4 days.  Too much is most likely the answer to both questions.  Ah well, such is life. 

Tomorrow is valentines day and I am going to do well because today I just ate and ate and now I feel sick.  I tried to purge but I didn’t try hard enough, and it was mainly because I feel really sick from eating.  I’m going to get back into the swing of things this week, I’m even going to try to do yoga in the morning. 

On a happy note I am fitting into size 5 pants and wearing my little brother’s belt.  He is v. skinny, taller than me and 106 pounds.  I’m so jelous. 

Well, I have to go comment now because that is a good idea and because you all deserve it. 

This is going to be a bad weekend, I’m not even going to make excuses.  I’m going to be gone until sunday night or monday morning so I will update then and comment on everyone.  I’m sorry I’m getting so bad at this.  You all are so supportive, thank you ever so!  Stay strong girls, and focused. 

127.7

Not bad for a piece of chocolate cake.

B – Granola Bar, 180 (maybe not the entire thing it tastes like it’s stale)

One day until my sister is here.  She and her husband and one of our friends is going to pick me up from college and take me home for the weekend.  It looks like a tornado went through my room. 

I didn’t finish the granola bar.  It was yucky.  I’m going to have dinner tonight because I’ve been really good lately which means I feel v. faint at times and I don’t want to fall down in the shower any time soon. 

127.4

Looks like this is working.  I’m going to try it again today.  I realized that I want to be as small as my sister was when she was back and just pregnant, which is 125.  Makes sense, considering that is my next goal weight.  This is the week ya’ll!  I’m going to make it!

B – 1 zantrax, cereal, 110 calories, water

L – 16 oz hot chocolate, 352 calories according to the calculate for Dunkin Donuts hot chocolate, 1 power g, 2 green tea

Talking to my friend Arizona online:

AZjapan: well i always thought u were hot it was just u were sooo scary wit the red hair especially when u got mad at me
CaptainOats xO: hahahahah
CaptainOats xO: you are right
CaptainOats xO: you are funny
AZjapan: wat
AZjapan: im not kiddin i have always found u very very attractive just the red was killin ya CaptainOats xO: aw jeeze.  but i look so much better as a red head
AZjapan: NO
AZjapan: u look sooooo much better as a blonde
CaptainOats xO: it’s like the lindsay lohan effect
AZjapan: ya cept ur not anoerxic
CaptainOats xO: haha true

This is the best secret in the world.

EDIT – Messed up and will mess up again.  Chocolate is in order when friends break up with their boyfriends.  It’s a bad night for girls night.

EDIT AGAIN! – Ok, I only had a piece of chocolate cake, and I took the power g and green tea so it wouldn’t be so bad.  Considering I could have eaten tons more I think that’s pretty good.  Also I was running around like mad doing things because I moved today.  I got the room!  A good nights sleep, I’m so excited.  Speaking of which…

Fat again.

INTAKE SO FAR

B – 1 zantrax, 110 cals of cereal, water

L – Apple, fiber, water

D – 3 cups of tea.  No cal!

Late Night (LN) – 1 cup of tea, 1 cup of hot chocolate, 80 calories, power g, 2 green tea, water

This is so annoying, being me.  Sorry about the lack of comments, I will do it later.  I have to do something while I don’t eat.

EDIT – Intake for the day is 190 calories!  Under 200 calories, wow I feel good.  And tired.  Time for bed.  Love you all, will comment tomorrow.