I didn’t get enough sleep last night.

Yesterday I had pizza for dinner and it was gross but at least I didn’t have dessert.  Today’s intake so far…

B – none

L – A granola bar, 180 cals

Pills – 1 g power, 2 green tea, 1 zantrax 3

I’m easing into the zantrax because it’s my first time taking it.  And I also got apple cider vinegar pills, and some fiber pills.  I took some fiber last night.  Mmmmm fiber.  I still really want the Lindsay Lohan Vanity Fair issue.  I’m going to hunt for it for a while I can tell.  Maybe they will have it at the pharmacy when I go back to college. 

EDIT – I played with the treadmill and burned off 170 cals.  I know it’s the most random number ever, but I am not used to working out and I don’t want to die yet.  I chose life.  Later I’m having dinner with mom so that will be hopefully under 500 calories.  It’s a stirfry thing that you just heat up on the stove, and maybe I will make it and make sure I get the proper serving size, which would be just 370 calories.  Anywho, I’m going to go hop in the shower.  I smell.

EDIT AGAIN! – I had dinner with mom, ate about 500 calories worth of dinner and m&ms.  I don’t do everything right, I usually mess up worse but thanks for the thought put into the universe.  🙂

INTAKE

B – nothing

L – slept through

D – will be something because mom ruins my days by having us have a family meal.

Yesterday was so good and then last night my mom had us all eat chicken pot pies, which have something like a million cals in them.  Then I had some ice cream and chocolate.  I know it’s bad, but at least now it won’t be there to eat again!  And I worked out every day except today and when we finally move the treadmill inside I will walk for like an hour. 

I went to Walmart with Chrissy today and I will post a list of everything I got when I get back to the dorm because here it is dangerous to have things out in the open because of my mom.  I got alot of stuff.  And a work out DVD.  I love Chris because she is the only person who knows about this stuff that I do that isn’t online.  She is really helpful.  Always supportive.  A big inspiration.  Love her!

Oh yeah, and I went blonde.  Maybe I will post pictures of that too.

EDIT – I just found out about the Lindsay Lohan bulimia thing.  And I went to the store to see if I could get the magazine and THEY DON’T HAVE IT.  Maine is 18 steps behind and it’s making me mad.  I’m going to go listen to her new cd and diy my hair again.  Blonder.  Like hers was. 

And I watched Wedding Crashers and I want to be Rachel MaCadams.  I will be I swear.  Dagnabbit.

EDIT AGAIN! – This is where the pictures of me are at. Take a look see. I’m wearing a hat.

Today I finally went to bed around 2.30 I think, then woke up at 7.30.  Was in the car and on the way at 8.15, got to the doc’s in time for my 9 appointment, was there until 11.30 because they are all mean people that want me to hate them and then on the way home mom decided we had to stop and buy a treadmill and she let me buy the anorexic’s manuel, teen vouge.  So it started out bad and ended good.

INTAKE SO FAR

b – a small vanilla chai

l – nothing so far

d – tba

I’m not sure if I’m going to work out tonight although I should because although I had a nice dumb salad at dinner I also had a piece of chocolate cake that was pure and utter deliciousness which means it’s making me fat.  So I gotta do something.  I think I will at least do the crunches even though my stomach hurts.   Oh yeah and I had some nachos and soda.  Wow I gotta get some control!  Jeez.

I gotta get inspired. 

EDIT – Ok, did the Carmen’s Strip Tease Aerobics for about 40 minutes.  May not be the most amazing workout but I figure something that makes me move and stretch things is always good.  I feel much better about today.

Went to bed at 3 ish last night because I watched Serenity and ate chocolate into the new year.  I suck at this really bad sometimes. 

I slept until 1 though, then took a shower and made myself pretty and didn’t eat and then ate around 5 because my Dad took me out to eat and a movie.  The Family Stone is very good and everyone should see it. 

I just went to walmart and I officially want more work out dvds so that is on my list of things to get as well.  I’m bored with my old ones.

My mom and I got in a fight because I was being in a bad mood during dinner last night.  I want to tell her to shove it.  Can I?  No.  I have to try to be perfect for the rest of the week so she doesn’t tweek out.  Well, here’s to the new year.  You want perfect?  I’ll give you perfect by June.  Bikini Season.  I’m gonna wear one this year bitches.  Yes I will.

EDIT – I just did a good amount of yoga so I feel better about today.  Yay Yoga!  And some crunches.  Yay Crunches!