Here is a random question :

Where do you get information on food, such as calories and negative calories?  I’m not as big of a nerd as I should be and I figure if I know what food is good then I can eat more of it and less of the bad and then you hunger for what you feed on and then I can get hungry for harmless things like apples more often.

More of an update later, I’m gonna work out damn it.

So today is a day that I am allowing myself to eat on, but I’m not feeling all that hot and I believe that making food would take way too much effort.  So I might just fast today out of laziness. 

I had to take nyquil last night to go to bed at what 3.45 in the am.  Now I’m almost out of nyquil and I won’t have a way to go to bed tonight. 

I want people to send me mail so that I’m happy.  Because mail makes me happy. 

129.7 first thing this morning.  Now I’m drinking water so it won’t count.

I haven’t worked out and I just keep thinking wow my body is gross except for my colar bone these days because my chest is just flat and I kinda like it.  I think it’s cool.

This is just absolutley the most pointless thing I’ve ever written.  So it’s ending.

Alright so I have not eaten for a little over 24 hours now.  Tomorrow is going to be an eating day and then I am going to try to work out every day during the week.

I am watching Wedding Crashers and it’s so fricken funny.  I love this movie.  And I want to be Rachel McAdams.  And Owen Wilson is so cute.  I am in lurve.

All I keep seeing is skinny people and I have realized that my issue is my thighs and hips.  It’s horrible because it’s a genetic thing.  Wide set hips, bones and everything, and big thighs.  They are getting better but I still gotta do more. 

OMG it’s the breakfast scene and I am hungry I will tell you what.  Not that I will eat. 

Holly says that there is an America’s Next Top Model marathon on tomorrow that we are going to watch.  I’m pretty phyced because it’s thinspiration all the times and she doesn’t even have a clue.

Still haven’t eaten.  I was on myspace for quite a while while simultaniously pretending to do homework.  I’m still not done with the homework. 

I really don’t want to do this homework but I know I have to.  One writing prompt is making a list of things to do and my list is things to do instead of eating.  It’s actually pretty funny.  But I think just about everything is funny. 

I slept until 3 in the afternoon today.  Well, that kept me from breakfast or lunch.

I decided last night that today I am not going to put anything in my system, no pills, no nyquil, just water.  I want to ‘recuperate’ a little bit because I felt kinda wierd last night. 

And this morning my weight was back to 129.9 and that was really nice.  I know it’s not like so low or anything but I have been wanting to see the 120s on that damn scale for years and now I finally do and it is the best thinspiration ever. 

I’ve decided that Lindsay Lohan will be my general thinspiration, because I have wanted to be her since I saw The Parent Trap when I was young and realized she is only a year older than me and just one person, and because she is 5’5 and I can’t try to be Nicole Richie because she is like 3 feet tall and 25 pounds.  My personal thinspiration is Rachel McAdams, because I want to be here now way bad.  We are alot alike actually, and she is a bit more pear shaped at 5’5 than Lindsay, who def. has bigger boobs than I. 

Intake so far today has been water.  And now I have to go to homework.  I will make the rounds later again because I have nothing else I would like to do more than give support to girls like myself.  And I’m not even being sarcastic.