So far so good, although I have a bit longer to go before I can be successful in all of this.  It is 1 in the afternoon and I haven’t eaten, but then there is the rest of the day and as hopeful as I am I am also a bit down about it.  I was at 130 and now I’m back at 132 and that is bothering me to the point of starvation which is a good thing of course.  Ugh I just feel like crap today. 

Put on two pounds since the beginning of the week.  Oops.  I know why.  Cus I’ve been eating.  I can’t anymore.  It’s making me unhappy.  Gotta get back to the euphoria that I get when I’m hungry.  I am not looking forward to home aside from getting to see my friends.  I’m going to try to hook up with Beth and Chris said she wanted to do something, so I’m pretty phyced to see them.

The dance last night sucked way bad, but He saw me looking really damn good if I may say so myself and he told me I looked good.  I know it wasn’t just a oh hey you look nice because I saw him look at me, and it wasn’t just casual look. 

I think I’m addicted to hot cocoa.  uh oh. 

EDIT – Today all I have had so far is a bite of a granola bar.  Pretty good.  I know I will have some cocoa later because, well, He is working at the cafe tonight so I might as well stop by on my way to reading at the library.  Pathetic?  Of course.  I just hope Holly can keep my secret that I like him.  I trust her but I also trust that she might tell. 

EDIT AGAIN – And then I had some squash, potatoes, and french fries.  and cookies and milk.  Well that was dumb.

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That and I’ve been eating more than I should latley. Damn. It.
 

b – nothing

l – 1 piece of pizza

B – 1 tablespoon of granola bar

L – 1 cup of veggies, the veggies from a piece of veggie pot pie.

Have been nursing a White Cranberry Apple Green Tea that has no carbs and 5 calories all day. 

Later I’m going to Concord with Kate for christmas shopping, so I will get green tea pills, and diet pills (g-power shit), perhaps Mary Kate on the cover of W, and presents for the family.

EDIT – Didn’t go to the mall after all, going tomorrow, and did have a chicken finger dinner.  I will do better this weekend I promise.