Yesterday I ended with more raw carrots, steamed peas, zuccinni, and a small bit of rice.  It’s easy not to eat their food when it’s gross.  And a little chocolate.   But for one day that is not bad considering I love food most of the time.

EDIT – Today I was going to eat healthy stuff but instead it was absolutley disgiusting, so I ate a piece of pizza and a four meat balls and little pieces of bread with them.  I will work out later.  I am so close to my christmas goal I can taste it. 

EDIT AGAIN! – Then a bunch of steamed carrots, but they had butter on them so I wansn’t impressed, a baked potato (oops, starch), some lettuce, and yoga.  Yay!  Yoga!!

Chris tagged me! 

Ground rules: The first player of this “game” starts with the topic ” Five Weird Habits of Yourself” and people who get tagged need to write a xanga entry about their five wierd habits as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next five people to be tagged and list their xanga IDs. Don’t forget to leave a comment saying ” You Are Tagged” on their xanga and tell them to read yours.

1. The only way I can stop picking my lips is by painting my nails really well a really nice color because when I pick at my lips with my nails like that the paint chips and I get pissed.
2. I tell my mom off in subtle ways that she can’t figure out sometimes, but it also usually gets her mad cus she knows somewhere in there is me hating her the slightest of bits.
3. I don’t use soap because it drys my skin out.  I don’t really use lotion much either though, so it’s all the same.
4. I can’t tell him that I like him and when I see him I try to break the habbit of being a bitch to boys I like.  I just am afraid of how he makes me feel and that I am the only one that feels it.
5.  I love to dance in private but can’t seem to do it in front of people at all.

Today I ate the tiny bits of a granola bar for breakfast so that my stomach wouldn’t yell during writing, then had lunch which was steamed beans, carrots, a small cup of soup (mostly broth) and a tiny bit of brown bread.  I could do better, but I figure the veggies are low cal and healthy.  And aside from that nothing. 

Plus I got an A in my computer tech class and don’t have to take the final.  Yay!

So yesterday I did the whole being good, then my mom and cait took me out to dinner.  I had some pasta with broccoli and chicken, but I shared a large with mom.  But then I had an Ice Cream Sundae. 

“I want 365 Sundaes.  And I’m not talking about the day after saturday.” – Summer, the OC

After that I didn’t eat though, and I worked out last night.  Stip Tease Arobics.  woot. 

Today I haven’t eaten and I painted my nails red. 

Yesterday at the mall Mom bought me three books and I am so excited to read them but I won’t untill J-term because if I start now I won’t be able to do anything else.  And she was supposed to buy Cait a baby book but she forgot.  I can’t believe I’m going to be an Aunt!    AHHHHH!

So I am going to go and not eat and try to do homework.  Damn Finals.

EDIT – Today I ate two bites of a granola bar, not even half of a half, a whole of which is 160 cal., then a very small amount of tomato soup and mashed potatoes at the cafeteria, because it was really gross, and a few bites of ice cream to hide the taste of the soup and potatoes.  It was gross, but aside from that just some honey.  Not bad today I think.  Got alot of work done. 

EDIT AGAIN!  –  And I had a nice big hot chocolate. 

My mother and sister are coming up to visit today.  They are about 3 hours late.  It wouldn’t be so bad if I didn’t have such a bad night last night.  The guy I was hoping would be my date to the dance isn’t going, and how am I supposed to react?  I really like this guy and all I know is that he isn’t going, and all I’m left to do is assume that it’s because I’m not good enough.  That we don’t have what I thought we might.  And my sister will be here and I thought that would cheer me up but when we talked on the phone instead of being insightful and realizing that maybe more is wrong with me she just tells me to stop being a bitch.  I wasn’t even being that bad, I just don’t know what to do.  Not today, not tomorrow, not with her, not with myself.  This all makes me want to cut myself so that there is something to do with myself.  But I won’t.  Instead I’m not eating untill they take me out to dinner later, which I almost wish they wouldn’t.  I need to get hard core with this, because I’m not.  I lapse all the time.  I’m going to be more disceplined.  I’m going to take control of the only thing I can control.

I took a nap from when I got out of class at 9.40 till 12.55 so I haven’t eaten today so far.  I like that ya’ll.  And I’m not going to untill I have to.  Maybe dinner if I got with Holly and Elise, but for now I’m ok.  Or maybe I will have some honey after I brush my teeth because I get all wierd about my breath.  Meep! 

EDIT – And then I ate a little bit of chocolate (4 squares) and had a cup of corn chowder and green beans for dinner.  Salty chowder, so I’m takin the green tea now.  And that is all so far.  Probubly some chocolate later but not alot.  That isn’t bad for one day.