127.7

Not bad for a piece of chocolate cake.

B – Granola Bar, 180 (maybe not the entire thing it tastes like it’s stale)

One day until my sister is here.  She and her husband and one of our friends is going to pick me up from college and take me home for the weekend.  It looks like a tornado went through my room. 

I didn’t finish the granola bar.  It was yucky.  I’m going to have dinner tonight because I’ve been really good lately which means I feel v. faint at times and I don’t want to fall down in the shower any time soon. 

127.4

Looks like this is working.  I’m going to try it again today.  I realized that I want to be as small as my sister was when she was back and just pregnant, which is 125.  Makes sense, considering that is my next goal weight.  This is the week ya’ll!  I’m going to make it!

B – 1 zantrax, cereal, 110 calories, water

L – 16 oz hot chocolate, 352 calories according to the calculate for Dunkin Donuts hot chocolate, 1 power g, 2 green tea

Talking to my friend Arizona online:

AZjapan: well i always thought u were hot it was just u were sooo scary wit the red hair especially when u got mad at me
CaptainOats xO: hahahahah
CaptainOats xO: you are right
CaptainOats xO: you are funny
AZjapan: wat
AZjapan: im not kiddin i have always found u very very attractive just the red was killin ya CaptainOats xO: aw jeeze.  but i look so much better as a red head
AZjapan: NO
AZjapan: u look sooooo much better as a blonde
CaptainOats xO: it’s like the lindsay lohan effect
AZjapan: ya cept ur not anoerxic
CaptainOats xO: haha true

This is the best secret in the world.

EDIT – Messed up and will mess up again.  Chocolate is in order when friends break up with their boyfriends.  It’s a bad night for girls night.

EDIT AGAIN! – Ok, I only had a piece of chocolate cake, and I took the power g and green tea so it wouldn’t be so bad.  Considering I could have eaten tons more I think that’s pretty good.  Also I was running around like mad doing things because I moved today.  I got the room!  A good nights sleep, I’m so excited.  Speaking of which…

Fat again.

INTAKE SO FAR

B – 1 zantrax, 110 cals of cereal, water

L – Apple, fiber, water

D – 3 cups of tea.  No cal!

Late Night (LN) – 1 cup of tea, 1 cup of hot chocolate, 80 calories, power g, 2 green tea, water

This is so annoying, being me.  Sorry about the lack of comments, I will do it later.  I have to do something while I don’t eat.

EDIT – Intake for the day is 190 calories!  Under 200 calories, wow I feel good.  And tired.  Time for bed.  Love you all, will comment tomorrow.

128.5

I just passed out in the shower and fell over the edge onto my face.  It hurt.  It scared me.  I know why it happened, I haven’t eaten and the water was really hot.  I can’t stop shaking.

INTAKE

B – Granola bar, 180 cals

S – Hot Chocolate, 150? cals

P – 2 Apple Cider Vinager Diet Pills, 2 Power G, 4 Green Tea

L – Chicken pot pie, two chocolate chip cookies. 

When I could finally move without feeling like I was going to pass out I grabbed a granola bar.  I kept thinking ‘I don’t need to eat, this doesn’t mean anything’ but then I would feel like passing out again and I would be like ‘Ok I’ll eat!’  Now I have a third lip my mouth is so swollen, and the inside of my bottom lip is all ripped up from my retainer because it was still in at the time of the fall, and I have a scrape on my chin.  And a headache.

But I’m ok.  I just have to keep going.  Keep on keeping on.  I might eat lunch and go to class and skip dinner. 

EDIT – I so didn’t skip dinner.  In fact I even went to late night.  I am going to do my best to fast tomorrow.  I don’t think I will need so much breakfast because I was a pig today.

And I went to the nurse and I’m still dehydrated.  Freakin water.

1. The OC was freakin awesome and I kinda think Johnny died but that would be so sad and Seth needs to stop smoking pot or I will kick his ass.

2. The zantrax works well, it gives me energy and I have lost a few pounds.  That is really all I have to say about it.

3.  This weekend has been sucking because it is such bad weather and there is nothing to do. 

4.  Last night I visited Him at the Cafe and read Pride and Prejudice or at least the first bit of it and I wish I didn’t like Him so much because at the moment he seems to be the only boy I know who doesn’t like me back.  So frustrating.  And all of the other boys need to stop looking at me or something.  I think I’m going brown over next weekend just so people stop looking at me. 

5.  I’m fasting.  I’m too fat.

6. Fast is still going well, I am going to do it at least until lunch time tomorrow, around 11. 

7. Pride and Prejudice is really good.  I already think of myself as an Elizabeth Bennet.   I wish I was.