Dirty Sean

Still haven’t eaten.  I was on myspace for quite a while while simultaniously pretending to do homework.  I’m still not done with the homework. 

I really don’t want to do this homework but I know I have to.  One writing prompt is making a list of things to do and my list is things to do instead of eating.  It’s actually pretty funny.  But I think just about everything is funny. 

I slept until 3 in the afternoon today.  Well, that kept me from breakfast or lunch.

I decided last night that today I am not going to put anything in my system, no pills, no nyquil, just water.  I want to ‘recuperate’ a little bit because I felt kinda wierd last night. 

And this morning my weight was back to 129.9 and that was really nice.  I know it’s not like so low or anything but I have been wanting to see the 120s on that damn scale for years and now I finally do and it is the best thinspiration ever. 

I’ve decided that Lindsay Lohan will be my general thinspiration, because I have wanted to be her since I saw The Parent Trap when I was young and realized she is only a year older than me and just one person, and because she is 5’5 and I can’t try to be Nicole Richie because she is like 3 feet tall and 25 pounds.  My personal thinspiration is Rachel McAdams, because I want to be here now way bad.  We are alot alike actually, and she is a bit more pear shaped at 5’5 than Lindsay, who def. has bigger boobs than I. 

Intake so far today has been water.  And now I have to go to homework.  I will make the rounds later again because I have nothing else I would like to do more than give support to girls like myself.  And I’m not even being sarcastic. 

I did so well then around 6 I decided I was hungry.  So I ate.

Not like a binge but I had a meal.  I feel kinda bad but at the same time I took alot of the pills today and I worked out and I calculated how many calories I burn in one day and I’m feeling pretty good at the moment.  Plus, I just watched Saharah and Penelope Cruz isn’t perfect but she looks good in a bikini. 

Maybe that’s my problem, I don’t mind not being perfect.  I just need to find my perfect standard that I need to live up to.  I mean, aside from Jesus because he didn’t want to fit in a size 6 pants, he had a robe.

Thank you so much everyone for all of the support it really really makes a day go by easier. 

Yeah I ate yesterday and I found it wasn’t worth it because western ave. has horrible green pepper and onion pizza.  Such a dissapointment.  And I ate chocolate.  And it was good.

Just did some yoga, would have done crunches but I kept feeling like I was going to pass out from yoga so I’m not going to press my luck at the moment.  Maybe later. 

I couldn’t sleep the past few nights so I took nyquil last night around 10 after the OC (SOOOO GOOD!) and last night my sleep was fitful to say the least.  I was really hot too, like in the middle of the night I got up and took my pants off.  I woke up pantsless.  Pretty interesting sensation.

Intake Today

B – None

L – None

D – Granola bar – 180 calories

Pills – 4 Green Tea, 4 Fiber, 2 Apple Cider Vinager, 2 Gpower, 2 Zantrax 3

I will be taking a few more in an hour.  I just really want to cleanse my system.  I just almost spelled system wrong.  I need a shower.  I really do. 

I’m taking a poetry work shop and the teacher said to write the poem we are not supposed to write so I wrote this…

Maybe

I

Will write this

Later

I think it’s pretty funny.  Then again I have a wierd sense of humor.

11. Chuck Norris lives by only one rule: No fat Chicks.

That is pretty great.  I checked the pharmacy for the new Vanity Fair and they sold out.  I was so pissed.  Holly said that we can go to concord and get it at the mall, and that while we are there we will go out to dinner and see a movie.  It will be our date night.  🙂

More of an update later on.