It is 4.30 in the morning and I cannot sleep.  I’m freezing and I’m tired and I have a lunch date with my father tomorrow at 11.30.  That gives me not enough time to sleep.


All I can think of is how great being hungry is and how dumb I am for having eaten anything today and how excited I am to be able to wear a bikini this year and how I’m going to keep working out tomorrow and the next million and a half days.


I just want to sleep, is that too much to ask?