I have alot of respect for the people that can actually plan their week and when they will and won’t eat.  I just decide the night before most of time.


I’m really having a bad day.  Fell asleep around 2 and woke up at quarter of 8 and dyed my hair blonde and did work and went to class at 12 and did work and then


One of my best male friends decides to tell me that he has a ‘massive crush’ on me.  Oh no.  This kid is one of my best friends, he is funny, not bad looking, smart, over analytical, has been involved in ‘the buisness of protection and provention'(organized crime), and is a Jahovah’s Witness.  I would never date him.  Not only do I not date Jahovah’s Witnesses, but I would never feel safe with him.  And I feel so bad because he is one of my best friends and he doesn’t like girls just generally like having crushes on whoever, and he thinks alot of me and all I can think is ‘no, don’t I’m not worth it I’m way too much for you’ because he thinks he knows me really well but he doesn’t even know about THIS, the ED stuff and I can’t tell him but you know I would be afraid of crushing him with my body all the time and it’s horrible. 


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