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Mhhh…I think that working out for two weeks and not eating then having my period and eating a bit and taking pills all the while is working for me.  I don’t know.  I just want to keep this happening cus that is like 5 pounds in a month.  I was looking at my past entries and I’ve only lost 5 pounds since the begginning of december.  I need to get better at this. Or keep being better at this. 


Last night my friend (the one who is male and has a crush on me) told me he is worried about me.  Straight up worried because he sees patterns in me of the negative sort, and he couldn’t place what he thinks is going on but he wants me to tell him.  So I didn’t.  I told him yes, I have an outlet for it (xanga), yes there is someone who has been here before that I can talk to about it (C) and no God doesn’t like what I’m doing but I am doing it anyway.  He wants to make sure I’m going to be ok, and all I can think is yeah first of I’m still pretty darn fat so I don’t think I have any conditions arising, second I would know if I did and I would try to get healthier, third yeah, motherfucker, I’m fine.


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