I’m going on a mini-vacation in order to be a part of my friend’s wedding party. This MV is taking me down to a part of Tennessee I’ve never even heard of. I’m going to be hanging out with people I haven’t seen in years or haven’t ever met. I’m going to be completely out of my element. And I’m stressed out about it.
Even with the promises that I find and try to memorize from the bible, even with my understanding of God’s hand on everything, even with my inability to change anything ever, I am still stressing out about going on this trip without understanding why. I figured it out, though. And the revelation is one I’m actually slightly embarrassed and ashamed to have.
I’m afraid I’m not a good enough christian to handle the world without falling into it head over feet.
There are so many problems with this statement that I don’t think that the night will be able to handle that amount of typing, but I can say with certainty that there isn’t a firm base for the fear to stand on, aside from the one that resides on my tongue.
The good man brings good things out of the good stored up in his heart, and the evil man brings evil things out of the evil stored up in his heart. For out of the overflow of his heart his mouth speaks. – Luke 6:45
I’ve not always been able to communicate nicely. In fact, I use my mouth to wage war against the world for no good reason, but that’s not what I am trying to do these days. I’m afraid of falling into it. And falling into everything else that it brings. So my prayer is that I will be able to show a good example, and to please my Lord.
Set a guard, O LORD, over my mouth; keep watch over the door of my lips! – Psalm 141:3